Eclipseee:D

Who's a twilight fan?! MEEEEE!
ima huge fan so you know I was happy AF when the third movie came out :D
I saw it, it was straight.
the fighting scene was nice AF :D they did a beautiful job on the third one! the second one was eh, the first one was EHHHHHHH ! but the third one ? straight :)

Kid Cudi: Half Man, Half Amazing

So this is Kid Cudi. One of my personal favorites. He's is indeed half man, half amazing. His songs are so fucking awesome. they're so .... real. His lyrics are so damn creative!

Favorites:
1. Up, Up & Away
2. Save My Soul
3. Down & Out
4. Mr. Solo Dolo
5. Do It Alone


omg, you HAVE to listen to all of them! or else you will not have a fully complete life. That's all now ! Kid power !!!

-_-

so the past couple days have been kinda straight. I mean, there's nothing notable that happened that will interest you, or anyone.

so last night I watched My Sisters Keeper for the first time. It's a sad movie. Real sad. I didn't cry during the movie though. I think I tried not to. I cried after the movie though. It wasn't entirely because of the movie. I mean the whole story line was sad but that's not why I cried. During the movie, the girl with cancer, (kate) had her mother the entire time that she had the disease. she had her when she went to her prom, when she had sex for the first time, when she got her first boyfriend, when her boyfriend died, even when she decided she was ready to die. after, I realized that a mother is the most special creature that was ever created towards a child. I mean, there are alot of dead beat fathers out there and alot of dead beat mother too. but when you do have your mother there physically, it
s very hard not to have her there emotionally. because any mother who is there everyday physically for their child is willing to do anything to make sure they're happy. to make sure that they are just about the happiest child around. I cried myself to sleep because my mother's there physically, but her mind is only interested in her eight year old son. you could say it's because he's younger, or because he's a boy. but that shouldn't matter. I'm her child too. why doesn't she care about me the same way she cares about him? why isn't her interest in me the same way it is in me? You can say I'm selfish too, I got that a lot. I got that I'm ungrateful, selfish. name it and I've been called it. it's sad because, how much can you possibly need to amplify that you need to care? It doesn't matter to her that I've been going through depression for the past year of my life. it doesn't matter to her that I've cried myself to sleep the entire summer last year because I started cutting myself and found it hard to stop. she doesn't care. she just wants me to grow up to be the lawyer she wants to be so I can take care of her. But, it's okay " label me what you like, im close to my victory, dozed in the fight " KidCudi

Day 2 Week 1 : Its hot as FUCKKKKKKK!!!!

shit, it's hot!

Real hot. Well I woke up in the heat, & went right back to bed * then I got up & made my brother's breakfast. Then I forgot to make mines * ; beautiful . The rest of the day was a pretty chill & lazy day. I wrapped Muffin's birthday present & wrote her letter so she could read it on her birthday . It was sad :( well most of my letters are always sad. then I watched movies ; tweeted & listened to music. Now here I am. Done with the day. I'm gonna see Lex. tomorrow. I haven't seen her in ages! Yea, I'm happy though. then I'm gonna see Jekiya & Ciera on Wednesday ; I haven't seen them since Thursday :) the rest of my week should be chill though :p

Day 1 of Summer Boredom .

so, this is what happened today:

I woke up, went back to sleep.

Noticed my mom went to work & got right back up to start the day without her :)

Cleaned my room. Got dust in my eye

Laundry. Texting.

Invited Alexis over for Wednesday because I haven't seen her in forever

Cleaned the kitchen

Made dinner for the wrong day

Got yelled at for making dinner on the wrong day

Helped my mother get ready for a party

Helped my grandmother get ready for the same party

got a shower. it collapsed on me.

called Muffin; she talked about Adonis. I showed that I didn't give a damn about him or his stupid sister's cookout that she went to but couldnt come to mine.

Got ready for bed.

realized I wasn't tired.

Went on Twitter ( @AyoNelly )

tweeted.

Got bored.

Logged into Blogger to tell all of you about the first day of summer boredom.

the end .

Now im going to read some FML's just so mine wont seem that bad .

Summer boredom already takes over . .

it is literally the last day of school and I'm already bored out of my fucking mind. the summer is always never my best time of the year. It's always horrible because my mother never lets me out of the house b/c she doesn't trust me. why ? I dont know.It sad because I dont mind that much. I have no loyal friends that I'd want to hang out with but the least she could do is try and let me not be in jail. My best friends going to camp. My mother is going to make me watch my brother all fucking summer. I have no other friends. My LIFE SUCKS ASS.

Im completly dreading this shit hole summer. I kinda want to spend time with my father though. but how weird would it be if his wife was there? Yea. so that's crossed out. i would have my best friend to chill with but she's going to camp and she only comes home on the weekend. when she does come home then she's going to want to spend time with her stupid ass boyfriend. fuck him. fuck them. fuck this summer.


But since I have nothing to do, then I might just blog about every single day of this horrible summer. Good luck trying to enjoy my life.

Love of My Life; Wher are you ?

"My heart; it beats, beats for only you"

" I have smiled to many people for more than a billion times but when I first saw you, my heart took over and smiled for the first time. "